Sup, kid.
Seraphina wants to try and contact you, I think using this website method if you can't get a hold of the ipad anymore? You can maybe try to email me at theamberfield@pm.me, and in the next week I'm going to get them set up on this website and maybe be able to sign in.
This week I told the girl that I had a crush on that I had feelings for her, but I want to just be friends. She seemed a little suprised and said that she felt plutonic towards me, which was fair. I think I was dissocating a lot the whole time because I don't remember most of the conversation, and by the time I got home I laid on the couch, put my hand on my chest and instantly fell asleep.
The next day, I was walking down the street and heard someone yell my legal last name, which I haven't gone by for 14 years. Even before I transitioned, I went by a stage name for about ten years. I turned around and it was a friend of mine who turned out to be a trans dude, and he was transitioning all this time since we last seen each other. It was really mysterious and confusing and amazing for me, just how us queer people always seem to find each other somehow.
I've been having depression issues, and food security issues. The sunsetting at, like, 4:30 is really starting to get to me and my mental health. But I'm trying to survive. I know I'll get throuhg this. I hope there's some day where I could just stop running so much, to suriveve. I know I can get there
In community,
Amber Flannery Field
I just got home from going to the camera store. I am going to shoot a three-hour film that will be a documetnary that I am going to post on youtube. A lot of it is about how important kids (like you) are to me, and sometimes the pain that comes from it. I'm really excited to shoot it, I want to release it in December
I went on a date with a cute girl yesterday. I met her at Lesbian Library Day and she said to stop by her library, and so I decided to ask her out. We talked about possibily going on a second date, which is nice.
Also, there was this trans woman named Max who was there at the end of Lesbian Library Day and I introduced her to you so you two could talk. I actually re-make friends with her recently, through activism. It's a group called Transsexual Menace. They do a lot of good work in the community, such as hold vigils for trans women who passed away and helping out this org called Black Trans Liberation Kitchen help black trans women in need.
I saw Seraphina yesterday at quaker meeting. They told me they're going to be really busy (working 70 hours this week!!!!!) and me and them are going to have dinner at the end of the week, which I'm excited about.
I heard there were updates with your lawyer case. I really hope things go well for you, you deserve it.
In community,
Amber Flannery Field
Hey kid, I'm going to write you a letter every monday at around 6:00 pm. If you can reach people by email, then you can get me at TheAmberField@pm.me. I was so glad when you reached out to me.
I am sorry about what happened with your mom who wanted to adopt you. That is not fair, and you deserve so much more than that
I'm trying to be brief before the 6:00 pm deadline, but my life is a little rough. I've been having trouble with access to food, I'm very hungry a lot of the time
In light of some of the stuff you shared with me, I thought I would share that I have a crush on a girl. She has a boyfriend, and I don't want to mess with our friendship and so in about a week we're going to meet up and I'm going to just talk to her honestly about my feelings and see if there's a way we can work out being just friends
because I'm so tired from a lack of food, it is a little hard for me to write right now, but I promise I'll be more chatty about stuff in the near future.
you deserve to be loved, you deserve to be safe.
In community,
Amber Flannery Field